Just think of it.

We all have to do it at some point in our lives. If we're lucky, we do it early on. Somehow, we know it's true though I believe not all of us want to believe it.
The thing is, we still have to do it. We have to look our lives square in the kisser and demand what we want from ourselves. I have been looking closely at the lives of my elders. I don't mean to be intrusive but I am with them for some very intimate moments in their lives. I can't help but learn from what I see.
You have heard the truth. Thoughts become things. Our thoughts become who and what we are. What and how we live. So if we are lucky, early on in life we teach ourselves to make our personal agenda and then fight ourselves for it.
I know that I create these challenges for myself because all day long I am manifesting and acting and rolling with the flow I create and then engage. Not reacting to something that just happens to me but acting toward the end which is better if I keep it in sight from the start. Took me so long to get that. Took me most of my life to see that even the things that don't feel like they were in my power were still a part of something. Something I agree to simply because I stay. I do not die. I do not give up. I stay.
So many good people are leaving the planet. Yes, another way to say it is that they are dieing. I want to believe in spirit. I say God only sees life-force. I want to know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be even if where I am feels like it is breaking me. I choose not to break. I think of the future that exists with the silent backdrop of my past. I choose to live the present on purpose with my future ever in mind. Took me a long time to get that one, too.
Then there are my elders who live believing they must beg some unseen, human like force of love for the graciousness only a God can have. A graciousness that might just allow them the existence they don't deserve. A life they may have if they just pray hard enough and live as someone told them only God will accept as enough. Day after day reacting to events and dramas as kind of victims of this God they beg.
That part always confuses me. I did get that same teaching as a child but fairy tales came with that package and I grew out of them, too. I love the mystery. I love the feeling of unseen company. I just learned to protect myself and only accept white light. I taught myself that darkness only illuminates the light. It works for me. It makes me stronger and there is no begging. I learned to to say no to myself when I realize that I have created something that is harming me. I've learned that the power starts with me. The same power that I used to hand over to the guy with the book written about him and his son. The power that keeps my life light burning is a choice that I believe I made before I got here so it stays with me that if I goof the life I have, I am only letting myself down. Then there are all the people I was going to meet and bless with my love and light. Goofing the good stuff will keep me from being good for anyone else. What's the point to staying if we can't play nice together?
Sound a little off?
Well, I believe the mere fact that you read to the end means you are ready to hear it.
Well done.
This could sound like more of the nonsense hippies thought up. Doesn't matter to me if you don't agree. Part of what I am tells me that I respect what works for you and I appreciate it if you respect what works for me.
Ultimately, if you live your life with no harm to yourself and anyone else, you are ahead of the game.
My elders, well, I can't talk this way to them. They just laugh. But they love me and are grateful that I am not afraid of the life they let me share with them, no matter how difficult it can get for us. People call this my ministry. I hear an old word that means more than one thing. What ever you want to call what I do is up to you, just so you give it a try. Just so you look into the eyes of the elders around you and remember they are you. It's all your choice, your creation. I hope you tend your garden and love your life for the life you know you created and nurtured. You are the boss of you, remember?